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Hello hello!! Greetings fellas!!!
So, winter break began about two days ago. It's supposed to last for two weeks, so that's awesome.
In the country, our voivodeship had winter break on the last term. which sucks!! because i was really really tired from school already, i was super burnt out so i barely even attended lessons. i have a lot of things i still need to complete, school related or not, because of that dang burn out.
on friday we went to visit our family (on mom's side) in a city two hours away from us. it was mostly grandma's idea, and none of us really liked it (mainly since our aunt and uncle and known for constantly arguing and starting fights), but we did it so that grandma won't be mad at us for the entire week. once we were here, there were some good parts, some bad. i got to eat a sweet roulade which was awesome. i'm not really one for eating dinner at other people's places, so all i ate is a bit of salad throughout those two days and the rest were just snacks.
the second day was probably the worst. my dad got super drunk, since it was my uncle's birthday, and then he did a bunch of stupid stuff. he got angry at every thing i said even though i was only worried for him and then told me it's all my fault that he and mom ever argue. i forgave him though, today he said he doesn't even remember anything, and apologized. i believe him.
later that night surprise surprise, uncle and aunt got into an argument, and that made aunt not want to sleep in the same bed as him anymore, so my grandma invited her to the place where i'm supposed to sleep. they were super drunk so they were not talking any buts or anything, so i basically had to sleep on the kitchen floor. thank god i remembered there being a blanket in one of the rooms! otherwise i would have been freezing. which, i already kind of was, since the floor was super cold. but it was fine. my bones hurt a little but it's fine. it was actually kind of comfortable!
today we will be going back home, and my friend is having her birthday party today as well, so i'm hoping i can go there somehow. she lives a few cities away from me which is the thing that's making it so hard for me to go there. i really hope i find a way of transport. if i stayed there, i would have to stay for the night, so there wouldn't be a problem with my grandma not being able to drive during the dark. but the problem sits in the fact that i didn't take my medicine yesterday (because i forgot), and i might act weird because of it, so i don't know if it's a good idea for me to go, and i don't know if my mom will let me either. it seems like such a trivial thing, i mean, it's just medicine, but unfortunately it is medicine for treating psychosis so it's not that i will just be a little off but i will be completely tweaking. i really don't want to weird them out or ruin the party. i know it's the worst if i didn't go, especially since i had a fever when there was a different birthday party hosted a few weeks back and couldn't go, but i just don't want to ruin it. i don't want my friends to not like me anymore, or not have fun at the party. i don't wanna ruin their day, so maybe it's better if i stay home at that time.
i hope they have fun though! unfortunately i'm broke as a joke and can't really buy gifts (which i feel INCREDIBLY guilty about), so i'll be drawing something for my friend's birthday.
i was gonna do it the time where i'm at family's house, but i didn't take my tablet. i don't even know why, i must be stupid. all i could think about this entire time was how much i want to draw.
i tried drawing with my mouse though! it didn't go that well, and it's all choppy, but here's my ponysona. i wanna draw ponies a lot recently.
the cutie mark is a sun because the sun is kind of my whole thing. being suni and all.
that's it for today's entry!!!
So, winter break began about two days ago. It's supposed to last for two weeks, so that's awesome.
In the country, our voivodeship had winter break on the last term. which sucks!! because i was really really tired from school already, i was super burnt out so i barely even attended lessons. i have a lot of things i still need to complete, school related or not, because of that dang burn out.
on friday we went to visit our family (on mom's side) in a city two hours away from us. it was mostly grandma's idea, and none of us really liked it (mainly since our aunt and uncle and known for constantly arguing and starting fights), but we did it so that grandma won't be mad at us for the entire week. once we were here, there were some good parts, some bad. i got to eat a sweet roulade which was awesome. i'm not really one for eating dinner at other people's places, so all i ate is a bit of salad throughout those two days and the rest were just snacks.
the second day was probably the worst. my dad got super drunk, since it was my uncle's birthday, and then he did a bunch of stupid stuff. he got angry at every thing i said even though i was only worried for him and then told me it's all my fault that he and mom ever argue. i forgave him though, today he said he doesn't even remember anything, and apologized. i believe him.
later that night surprise surprise, uncle and aunt got into an argument, and that made aunt not want to sleep in the same bed as him anymore, so my grandma invited her to the place where i'm supposed to sleep. they were super drunk so they were not talking any buts or anything, so i basically had to sleep on the kitchen floor. thank god i remembered there being a blanket in one of the rooms! otherwise i would have been freezing. which, i already kind of was, since the floor was super cold. but it was fine. my bones hurt a little but it's fine. it was actually kind of comfortable!
today we will be going back home, and my friend is having her birthday party today as well, so i'm hoping i can go there somehow. she lives a few cities away from me which is the thing that's making it so hard for me to go there. i really hope i find a way of transport. if i stayed there, i would have to stay for the night, so there wouldn't be a problem with my grandma not being able to drive during the dark. but the problem sits in the fact that i didn't take my medicine yesterday (because i forgot), and i might act weird because of it, so i don't know if it's a good idea for me to go, and i don't know if my mom will let me either. it seems like such a trivial thing, i mean, it's just medicine, but unfortunately it is medicine for treating psychosis so it's not that i will just be a little off but i will be completely tweaking. i really don't want to weird them out or ruin the party. i know it's the worst if i didn't go, especially since i had a fever when there was a different birthday party hosted a few weeks back and couldn't go, but i just don't want to ruin it. i don't want my friends to not like me anymore, or not have fun at the party. i don't wanna ruin their day, so maybe it's better if i stay home at that time.
i hope they have fun though! unfortunately i'm broke as a joke and can't really buy gifts (which i feel INCREDIBLY guilty about), so i'll be drawing something for my friend's birthday.
i was gonna do it the time where i'm at family's house, but i didn't take my tablet. i don't even know why, i must be stupid. all i could think about this entire time was how much i want to draw.
i tried drawing with my mouse though! it didn't go that well, and it's all choppy, but here's my ponysona. i wanna draw ponies a lot recently.
the cutie mark is a sun because the sun is kind of my whole thing. being suni and all.
that's it for today's entry!!!
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